so true...

so while on facebook i was reading my cousin's post and it really caught my attention and all kind of thought popped up in my head so im gonna use this post to just typing everything that comes to mind even if things dont make sense ... you be the judge ....

being happy means letting somethings go....
but the hardest thing is to realizing is it worth it...
u can get comfortable with how things are ...
to where going for happiness can make you miserable ...

like in the life of a drug addict ...

doing drugs make them happy,

but the drugs are killing them ,

so trying to leave drugs alone,

is misery to them,

viewing happiness in other eyes may not be happiness for you ...

happiness take soul searching,

finding you,

because if you let other people determine who u are ,

your be living in misery,

so maybe them drugs provide happiness to the addicts,

or maybe it just soothes them for the moment,

but when the go to find true happiness,

them drugs will be the last thing they will find...

heartless...

Heartless...

Not sure if i'll ever love another ,

My heart still hurt from the last motherfucker,

I guess you can say he fucked it up for the rest,

I don't love easy,

But I do love hard,

And yes that mother fucker left me scarred,

Not sure if I could love again ,

This shit hurt like hell,

The joy I got from love,

quickly turned bittersweet,

Everything I was afraid of has happened ,

Bitches started to appear,

Smiles turned into frowns,

Laughter turned into cries,

My heart is all fucked up in the inside,

With my pride,

I was able to patch things up,

No longer do I give a fuck,

Fuck crying fuck him fuck love,

I'm fine with loving myself,

Don't need no one else ,

for you i will

so i wrote this poem awhile ago for this guy...

butterflies,

stary eyes,

nothing even matters when i'm with you,

the doors to my heart is slowly opening,

please,

be patient with me,

opening my heart isn't to easy,

i know to love is to risk it all,

but,

i'm afraid to take risk,

i don't wanna risk being hurt,

i don't want my love to turn into hate,

and you know what they say,

there's a thin line between love and hate,

but,

they also say you learn from ur mistakes,

so slowly,

i'm removing my shield,

slowly,

giving u my heart,

hoping you'll love me,

just as much as i'll love you,

and i pray to god,

i wont regret,

giving my heart to you...

Mission Beach, California

FUN DAY..

sandy

lovely

beachy

day

tear jerker...

so my bestfriend and i went to see MY SISTER'S KEEPER

this movie is the best movie ever. i cried horribly, not no tear ever now and then but some chest moving , couldnt breath crying.

the screen writter of this movie deserves a FUCKING oscar.

it wasnt a dry eye in the theatre .

this movie is crazy sad, and the relationship with the sister is the SWEETEST thing ever.

all i can say that from watching this movie i really feel blessed and would never take anyone in my family for granted and ill do anything for them to make them happy

cause in the end YOUR family is YOUR family.

whew!! i love this movie and its the best movie ever!

the man of my life...

IDRIS ELBA

this man is so damn SEXY

i love dark skinned men damn it!

he is hot...

i want my husband to be just like him lol

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