heartless...

Heartless...

Not sure if i'll ever love another ,

My heart still hurt from the last motherfucker,

I guess you can say he fucked it up for the rest,

I don't love easy,

But I do love hard,

And yes that mother fucker left me scarred,

Not sure if I could love again ,

This shit hurt like hell,

The joy I got from love,

quickly turned bittersweet,

Everything I was afraid of has happened ,

Bitches started to appear,

Smiles turned into frowns,

Laughter turned into cries,

My heart is all fucked up in the inside,

With my pride,

I was able to patch things up,

No longer do I give a fuck,

Fuck crying fuck him fuck love,

I'm fine with loving myself,

Don't need no one else ,

for you i will

so i wrote this poem awhile ago for this guy...

butterflies,

stary eyes,

nothing even matters when i'm with you,

the doors to my heart is slowly opening,

please,

be patient with me,

opening my heart isn't to easy,

i know to love is to risk it all,

but,

i'm afraid to take risk,

i don't wanna risk being hurt,

i don't want my love to turn into hate,

and you know what they say,

there's a thin line between love and hate,

but,

they also say you learn from ur mistakes,

so slowly,

i'm removing my shield,

slowly,

giving u my heart,

hoping you'll love me,

just as much as i'll love you,

and i pray to god,

i wont regret,

giving my heart to you...

Mission Beach, California

FUN DAY..

sandy

lovely

beachy

day

tear jerker...

so my bestfriend and i went to see MY SISTER'S KEEPER

this movie is the best movie ever. i cried horribly, not no tear ever now and then but some chest moving , couldnt breath crying.

the screen writter of this movie deserves a FUCKING oscar.

it wasnt a dry eye in the theatre .

this movie is crazy sad, and the relationship with the sister is the SWEETEST thing ever.

all i can say that from watching this movie i really feel blessed and would never take anyone in my family for granted and ill do anything for them to make them happy

cause in the end YOUR family is YOUR family.

whew!! i love this movie and its the best movie ever!

the man of my life...

IDRIS ELBA

this man is so damn SEXY

i love dark skinned men damn it!

he is hot...

i want my husband to be just like him lol

coolest commercial ever

michael joesph jackson 1958-2009

its so sad when someone life had to end so soon...
but like beyonce said "Life is not about how many breaths you take, but about how many moments in life that take your breath away.
MICHAEL JOESPH JACKSON ...
yes is the BEST ENTERTAINER KNOWN TO MAN...

had a beautiful memorial where ppl that loved michael came to pay their respect ...
but im not understanding why ppl are putting him on some type of pedestal where he is not allowed to make mistakes...
YES he was an icon but why is he being treated like he wasnt human...

YES MJ had in my eyes the worse case of drug addiction


YES the DOCTORS didnt make it no better and should be prosecuted because in many ways seeking help for him could have allowed him to still be among the living
BUT why cant the media allow the police or whatever to do their job...
and allow MJ and his family peace
MJ died on June 25th ,

today is July 10th
and the media is not carrying on about his good deeds

but more so of his mistakes
just let him be ... DAMN!

drunken hot girl..

ha i so enjoyed the time my best friend came home from the navy ... we got so drunk OMG! it was hilarious .. watch care fully cause this shit is so amusing :o] ... damn it ... i miss my BESTFRIEND...

HADLEY ST. ANGELS...

COOL.... so over my christmas and spring break i was an intern for Music World Entertainment... aint that cool! how did i get the internship ? well while fabric shopping for my prom dress at the best fabric store in houston "HIGH FASHION" and i bumped into the beautiful TINA KNOWLES... and when i say this lady is so down to earth and sweet...[ she treated me and remind me of my own grandmother. ]so i was over near the fabrics trying to match up some fabrics together and i guess she seen me match up so stuff and she quickly walked over to me and said "nu uh baby them colors does not go " so she starts to take charge and created me the most beautiful prom dress ever and i love it til this day and i often try it on and play around in it :o] kinda like dress up!... and guess what? she FREAKIN paid for it!! i mean i know its nothing to a BOSS but still she was kind enough to allow me to not be broke after prom ... and best part she took my number and her assistant took me out to get jewlry and etc. to match my dress DAMN IT ...that was the highlight of my life .. and for then on her and her assistant looked out for me and i got me an intership where i learned alot of cool stuff and met cool ppl.... and i learned more about some great artist likeBEYONCE IB3 AND SOLANGE... BEYONCE...come on now i'll be forever this chick is very much so a DIVA and an all around great entertainer.... but more so i am so proud of SOLANGE for stepping out and creating her own pathway through the music world... saying "FUCK YOU" to all the people doubting and criticizing her ... i mean shit the girl is FUCKING cool.. and she AINT JUST B'S SISTER ... she has great creativity ... good ass CD , bomb ass style now ppl.. when ppl stop hating HELL WILL FREEZE OVER ...now newbie to my world ... IB3 she is cool too nice mixtape Honorable Mentioned... sorry i have to search for her url for the downlaod cause the chick is nice dont sleep on her ppl!... i dont have much much info on her but soon i will :o]...

"they talked about jesus"

i love myself so much...
i have grown accustomed to enjoy my own company...
and have been able to live my life ...
with my middle finger in the air to whomever has something negative to say to me...
i remember when i was younger i had a punched a kid in the face because she had something to say about my gap [that i have grew to love]...
and my grandmother was so angry yelled at me and said GIRL THEY TALKED ABOUT JESUS WHAT MAKE YOU SO SUPERIOR... and now that im 19 and not that 11yr old kid anymore...
i understand what she meant and why she called my actions so "STUPID AND SILLY'
i learned that if you fight to live up to the world expectations you will never be happy...
i love myself and the skin im in ...

look what ive found...

so i was snooping around on you tube and found this cute lil video someone made... i like

cornado island...

beautiful island ... i enjoyed it very much... ate at a very nice resturant called "Miguels" their shrimp fajitas was great :o] yum yum yum!!

LEGOLAND

hilarious... today i really really really enjoyed me self today ... explored legolaand with the little homie quin today... he burnt me out.... im so damn sleepy... but i have more blogging to do i havent been blogging much :o]

DIVA

 

WOW! B .. SHE DID IT AGAIN ANOTHER KICK ASS VIDEO FOR HER FANS TO LOVE.. AND HER HATERS TO ENVY ...HA HA HA HA ....i love her!

MY VISIT TO SAN DIEGO

today is my 6th day in San Diego .... and im fucking enjoying it... its beautiful out here... the weather is beautiful... so far i have cruised most of the city... cornado island, the malls , and the zoo [ i really enjoyed the zoo, beautiful animals]... i like it here in san diego... but i couldnt live here its not up beat like what im use to but a great place to visit and relax and get away from ur every day life... well my stay is still not over stilll have a couple of beaches to visit.. still have to visit LA for a while... then back to the HOUSTON... [pictures coming soon]