[illest of the ill mentality]

uhhh there is no excuse

2010-04-29T22:57:00.000-07:00

i have been neglecting my blogspot :/ ... i need to get back on my shit .... errrr its been a long time .... work job little to none partying and i love partying and blogging but i havent been doing the two things i love partying and blogging... but i've been shopping nothing can stop me from shopping ... nothing at all :)

to a mother from a child...

2010-02-06T20:49:00.000-08:00

Dear Mother,

I know im not always the sweetest. and my room was never the cleanest. and my mouth is one of the wittiest. and i know u got tired of my disrespectfulness. but i never gave up and i want u to know im grateful. at times i would argue ur demands. only cause i didnt understand. that ur intrest was only ur BEST. so i would disobey, go my way, and do what the FUCK I WANT. so today i write u to say THANK YOU ... to say FUCK YOU...to say BITCH i RAISED ME. i made my OWN damn choices.that crack pipe in ur hands. is the reason why i always said fuck your demands. that u are pitiful. a waste of life . u spoke stupidity THATS why im always witty. and my room was only dirty cause I RUFUSED to give u a dollar. so u destroy my room in search of it. and with all the money in my pocket i refused to be SWEET and give u any. so mother u can "shove tht crack pipe up ur ass" cause now im walking across this stage arent u amazed? i got this far without ... YOU ... and now im leaving ... going so FAR that my chances of seeing u are slim to none ... where the ppl i meet will not know me as the crack head child... i will no longer get taunted cause of u ... but i still love u cause without u there would be no me.

*this is not from personal experience just something i made up..

forever & a day....

2009-10-05T10:50:00.000-07:00

i havent blogged in sooo long... but just to update u guys im back at Prairie View A&M ... this is my sophomore year ... errr things getting a little bit tough but im okay ... minor set backs for a big comeback! ...

so true...

2009-08-01T00:23:00.000-07:00

so while on facebook i was reading my cousin's post and it really caught my attention and all kind of thought popped up in my head so im gonna use this post to just typing everything that comes to mind even if things dont make sense ... you be the judge ....

being happy means letting somethings go....
but the hardest thing is to realizing is it worth it...
u can get comfortable with how things are ...
to where going for happiness can make you miserable ...

like in the life of a drug addict ...

doing drugs make them happy,

but the drugs are killing them ,

so trying to leave drugs alone,

is misery to them,

viewing happiness in other eyes may not be happiness for you ...

happiness take soul searching,

finding you,

because if you let other people determine who u are ,

your be living in misery,

so maybe them drugs provide happiness to the addicts,

or maybe it just soothes them for the moment,

but when the go to find true happiness,

them drugs will be the last thing they will find...

heartless...

2009-07-30T14:27:00.000-07:00

Heartless...

Not sure if i'll ever love another ,

My heart still hurt from the last motherfucker,

I guess you can say he fucked it up for the rest,

I don't love easy,

But I do love hard,

And yes that mother fucker left me scarred,

Not sure if I could love again ,

This shit hurt like hell,

The joy I got from love,

quickly turned bittersweet,

Everything I was afraid of has happened ,

Bitches started to appear,

Smiles turned into frowns,

Laughter turned into cries,

My heart is all fucked up in the inside,

With my pride,

I was able to patch things up,

No longer do I give a fuck,

Fuck crying fuck him fuck love,

I'm fine with loving myself,

Don't need no one else ,

for you i will

2009-07-30T12:56:00.000-07:00

so i wrote this poem awhile ago for this guy...

butterflies,

stary eyes,

nothing even matters when i'm with you,

the doors to my heart is slowly opening,

please,

be patient with me,

opening my heart isn't to easy,

i know to love is to risk it all,

but,

i'm afraid to take risk,

i don't wanna risk being hurt,

i don't want my love to turn into hate,

and you know what they say,

there's a thin line between love and hate,

but,

they also say you learn from ur mistakes,

so slowly,

i'm removing my shield,

slowly,

giving u my heart,

hoping you'll love me,

just as much as i'll love you,

and i pray to god,

i wont regret,

giving my heart to you...

Mission Beach, California

2009-07-15T00:21:00.000-07:00

FUN DAY..

sandy

lovely

beachy

day

tear jerker...

2009-07-13T22:31:00.001-07:00

so my bestfriend and i went to see MY SISTER'S KEEPER

this movie is the best movie ever. i cried horribly, not no tear ever now and then but some chest moving , couldnt breath crying.

the screen writter of this movie deserves a FUCKING oscar.

it wasnt a dry eye in the theatre .

this movie is crazy sad, and the relationship with the sister is the SWEETEST thing ever.

all i can say that from watching this movie i really feel blessed and would never take anyone in my family for granted and ill do anything for them to make them happy

cause in the end YOUR family is YOUR family.

whew!! i love this movie and its the best movie ever!

the man of my life...

2009-07-10T22:40:00.000-07:00

IDRIS ELBA

this man is so damn SEXY

i love dark skinned men damn it!

he is hot...

i want my husband to be just like him lol

coolest commercial ever

2009-07-10T20:07:00.001-07:00

michael joesph jackson 1958-2009

2009-07-10T17:57:00.000-07:00

its so sad when someone life had to end so soon...
but like beyonce said "Life is not about how many breaths you take, but about how many moments in life that take your breath away.
MICHAEL JOESPH JACKSON ...
yes is the BEST ENTERTAINER KNOWN TO MAN...

had a beautiful memorial where ppl that loved michael came to pay their respect ...
but im not understanding why ppl are putting him on some type of pedestal where he is not allowed to make mistakes...
YES he was an icon but why is he being treated like he wasnt human...

YES MJ had in my eyes the worse case of drug addiction

YES the DOCTORS didnt make it no better and should be prosecuted because in many ways seeking help for him could have allowed him to still be among the living
BUT why cant the media allow the police or whatever to do their job...
and allow MJ and his family peace
MJ died on June 25th ,

today is July 10th
and the media is not carrying on about his good deeds

but more so of his mistakes
just let him be ... DAMN!

drunken hot girl..

2009-07-10T13:10:00.000-07:00

ha i so enjoyed the time my best friend came home from the navy ... we got so drunk OMG! it was hilarious .. watch care fully cause this shit is so amusing :o] ... damn it ... i miss my BESTFRIEND...

HADLEY ST. ANGELS...

2009-07-09T23:02:00.000-07:00

COOL.... so over my christmas and spring break i was an intern for Music World Entertainment... aint that cool! how did i get the internship ? well while fabric shopping for my prom dress at the best fabric store in houston "HIGH FASHION" and i bumped into the beautiful TINA KNOWLES... and when i say this lady is so down to earth and sweet...[ she treated me and remind me of my own grandmother. ]so i was over near the fabrics trying to match up some fabrics together and i guess she seen me match up so stuff and she quickly walked over to me and said "nu uh baby them colors does not go " so she starts to take charge and created me the most beautiful prom dress ever and i love it til this day and i often try it on and play around in it :o] kinda like dress up!... and guess what? she FREAKIN paid for it!! i mean i know its nothing to a BOSS but still she was kind enough to allow me to not be broke after prom ... and best part she took my number and her assistant took me out to get jewlry and etc. to match my dress DAMN IT ...that was the highlight of my life .. and for then on her and her assistant looked out for me and i got me an intership where i learned alot of cool stuff and met cool ppl.... and i learned more about some great artist likeBEYONCE IB3 AND SOLANGE... BEYONCE...come on now i'll be forever this chick is very much so a DIVA and an all around great entertainer.... but more so i am so proud of SOLANGE for stepping out and creating her own pathway through the music world... saying "FUCK YOU" to all the people doubting and criticizing her ... i mean shit the girl is FUCKING cool.. and she AINT JUST B'S SISTER ... she has great creativity ... good ass CD , bomb ass style now ppl.. when ppl stop hating HELL WILL FREEZE OVER ...now newbie to my world ... IB3 she is cool too nice mixtape Honorable Mentioned... sorry i have to search for her url for the downlaod cause the chick is nice dont sleep on her ppl!... i dont have much much info on her but soon i will :o]...

"they talked about jesus"

2009-07-09T22:32:00.000-07:00

i love myself so much...
i have grown accustomed to enjoy my own company...
and have been able to live my life ...
with my middle finger in the air to whomever has something negative to say to me...
i remember when i was younger i had a punched a kid in the face because she had something to say about my gap [that i have grew to love]...
and my grandmother was so angry yelled at me and said GIRL THEY TALKED ABOUT JESUS WHAT MAKE YOU SO SUPERIOR... and now that im 19 and not that 11yr old kid anymore...
i understand what she meant and why she called my actions so "STUPID AND SILLY'
i learned that if you fight to live up to the world expectations you will never be happy...
i love myself and the skin im in ...

look what ive found...

2009-07-09T22:09:00.000-07:00

so i was snooping around on you tube and found this cute lil video someone made... i like

cornado island...

2009-07-09T21:32:00.000-07:00

beautiful island ... i enjoyed it very much... ate at a very nice resturant called "Miguels" their shrimp fajitas was great :o] yum yum yum!!

LEGOLAND

2009-07-09T20:28:00.001-07:00

hilarious... today i really really really enjoyed me self today ... explored legolaand with the little homie quin today... he burnt me out.... im so damn sleepy... but i have more blogging to do i havent been blogging much :o]

DIVA

2009-07-08T19:13:00.000-07:00

WOW! B .. SHE DID IT AGAIN ANOTHER KICK ASS VIDEO FOR HER FANS TO LOVE.. AND HER HATERS TO ENVY ...HA HA HA HA ....i love her!

MY VISIT TO SAN DIEGO

2009-07-08T14:41:00.000-07:00

today is my 6th day in San Diego .... and im fucking enjoying it... its beautiful out here... the weather is beautiful... so far i have cruised most of the city... cornado island, the malls , and the zoo [ i really enjoyed the zoo, beautiful animals]... i like it here in san diego... but i couldnt live here its not up beat like what im use to but a great place to visit and relax and get away from ur every day life... well my stay is still not over stilll have a couple of beaches to visit.. still have to visit LA for a while... then back to the HOUSTON... [pictures coming soon]

.IN LOVING MEMORY.

2009-06-25T17:43:00.000-07:00

THE KING OF POP

wow this moment is so crazy,

never thought that this,

day would come so soon,

my prayers goes to his family

FARRAH FAWCETT

One of Hollywoods "BEAUTY'S"

Great Actress and Activist "Violence Against Women"

Will always be remember

NEVER FORGOTTEN

WIERD COUPLE

2009-06-24T16:48:00.000-07:00

evan rachel wood & marilyn manson

My Decision

2009-06-23T15:24:00.000-07:00

WOW! I've been watching and reading a lot of ppl blogs and most they go deep ... and i have decided to step my game up ! ya know lol ... I have been tuning in to a lady name Lydia Cotton vblogs [ that bitch gets deep] I enjoy watching her blogs they are good and get pretty deep... some shit she say though i don't agree but we all are entitled to our own opinion but she does make some interesting points to go along with whatever she decides to convey through her videos.IM AM OFFICIALLY A FAN OF LYDIA COTTON :o]

when i grow up i wanna be like these two girls...

2009-05-07T14:35:00.000-07:00

Oprah and Michelle Obama

if u just realize

2009-05-06T17:19:00.000-07:00

Now I have realized
That it's not always good to listen to your heart...
Your heart don't consider the bad things only hold on to the good things...
For some reason the heart is forgiving ...
While the brain never forget ...
The heart makes it hard to say goodbye...
The brain gives it the strength and allows you to cry...
Crying is good for the soul ...
It allows the heart to see...
To see what it tried to forget and forgive ....
But makes you then realize...
Realize that it's not always good to follow your heart...
Use your brain..
The brain keeps the heart from making the same mistake twice ...
So don't get so comfortable with following your heart ...
Because your heart will map out something that seems so perfect ....
But your brain will show you REALITY

the coolest

2009-05-06T17:16:00.000-07:00

JANELLE MONAE

2009-05-06T16:47:00.000-07:00

I don't understand
I feel like I'm on a reality show
Fighting for his love
Willing to transpire to anything he want me too
Willing to do anything he want me to
Just to show him that my love is like no other
And he should pick me
He should give me his chain key to his heart and champagne
But, Now I'm tired
Tired of showing him that MY LOVE is unconditional
I wanna GO
Go back to where
who he kisses don't matter to me
And who he fuck all make sense
Sense to where he just another nigga and my heart don't scream from pain
I wanna make him history
Because if he truly love me is a mystery
Im not sure any more
If he loved me
he would know he don't have to look no further
He would feel that I'm all he need
And them other girls
Don't have non of his interest
So now I have to do what's best for me
It's best for me to walk out the door
Wipe my eyes,fight my tears
SO
he can keep his damn chain , key to his plastered ass heart and champagne

* i thought of this poem while watching For The Love Ray J

the fab life

2009-05-06T16:34:00.001-07:00

THE KNOWLES

FAB LIFE

its been along time...

2009-05-06T16:01:00.000-07:00

don't know where to start
its been along time since I've last blogged,
been so busy with school,
cant say work cause I'm a bum,
rely on my parents waaaayyy too much,
ummm well a lot has been going on with me and my life ,
boys and been trying to network and get the feel of things ya know,
i have been interning at the lovely MUSIC WORLD ENTERTAINMENT[Mr. Matthew Knowles establishment]
and if i do say so myself.. its been great,

cant complain at all,
had a lil boy issues
and when i say lil boy
i mean lil boy issues
but now I'm way over it...
moved on to way bigger and better things.

LIFE IS A BEEEECH DEPEND ON HOW YOU DRESS HER...
so if the devil wear prada,
E-V-E wear nada...
i am in between
but way mo' fresher
-KANYE

- viva [la] jazz

introduction

2009-01-13T18:30:00.000-08:00

waddup fellow blogger's!
allow me to introduce myself i go by the name of "viva la jazz". I'm from the great city Houston,Texas. I'm a student at Prairie View A&M majoring in accounting. i have the [illest of the ill mentality] i don't cater to bullshit. i don't sugar coat my words. i say what i mean and i mean what i say. don't take me for a rude stuck up bitch. I'm a nice caring person[no lie] goofy [love to laugh] respect "i demand it" my respect[u gotta earn it] loyalty[lives within me]

i love me so much...u will too

...until next time

-VIVA LA JAZZ-